Monday, March 9, 2020

MARCH 10TH, 2020. - MY TESTIMONY


MY TESTIMONY:

As the only child of teacher parents, you must hold to a certain standard of intelligence and behavior.  None of which I did.  My relationship with my mother was never a good one.  While I am most appreciative to having been a part of this world, it was a difficult journey due to my believing that I probably didn’t do anything well, or fast enough.  My parent tape included “I see I have to finish your chores since you can’t do them well.  You know you probably will never amount to anything in life until you finally decide to do them how I teach them.”  Then I had a 6th grade math teacher tell me, I had
better find a man in my life and get married, since I won’t be able to do anything of major proportions in life.”  And, so, that is exactly what I set out to do, find someone to take care of me.  I left home at 14 and 16 for good.  Married a serviceman and spent the next ten years letting men make all the decisions for me.  In one way or another.  It did finally occur to me in my twenties that I should give
up the pursuit of the occult, and go back to high school, graduated with good grades, then divorced, and met John Souder at WANE TV.

We married and after some major counseling in life, decided that a relationship to Christ would be important for me to pursue.  And, He led me to the Fort Wayne Bible College where I graduated with a Christian Counseling and Theology degree.  And, in addition to that, I went to the University of St. Francis, where I got my bachelors in Industrial Psychology/Psychology. Then I received a Masters in Counseling/Psychology.  Which led to being licensed by the State of Indiana in Marriage and Family Counseling/ and Licensed in Clinical Social Work.

The whole Pollyanna thing was born.  To help people shed their cocoon of addictions, or emotional pain.  Those stuck places we get into and can’t seem to let go of.   As a Christian Counselor with options to utilize the clinical aspects of Psychology, I began a practice in 1982.  I taught at IU one semester, and Summit/Taylor University, and did speaking, wrote two books, worked part time for other small agencies in counseling and human relations.  I also love working with leadership or facilitating in small groups.  Another passion is mentoring and coaching.   Coaching in interviews with pageant women, or for new positions in the work world.  I truly enjoyed the part of executive director for the Miss America Local Pageant theater.  In that genre I also did judging on the local level and working with young women who wanted to make the world different.  That is the one thing I love sharing with women, or anyone who will listen actually. 

Call it compensating for how I was taught in the beginning, or anything you like.  I so enjoy being a part of empowering people in the name
of Jesus Christ to let go of their stuck place.  When my husband passed away in 2018, I wondered what God would do with me then.  Being a widow, I have seen it has brought about a whole new me. The journey was the toughest thing I have ever experienced.  I always wondered about the whole widow thing.  It looked very difficult to me.  And, it was, and still is.  It has been the birth of this blog and desire to reach out to people with learning how to Dance at the Crossroads.

Crossroads – Those places in the middle of the road, with signs pointing everywhere.  Which way should I go, will I make a bad decision, why is this happening? What does God want?  What Lord what?  When Lord when?  Where Lord Where?  Joyce Meyer wrote that in one of her devotionals.  I will never forget that.

I hope you learn from my journey.  Sometimes God has to be the only one that writes on your page, and other times he uses all these wonderful authors who want to save you some time, and also, they want you to know “You are not the only one experiencing this!”



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